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"I am no bird; and no net ensnares me: I am a free human being with an independent will..." - Jane Eyre
 
25. Emma Watson
25+Girl Crush Challenge
http://www.polyvore.com/25_girl_crush_challenge/group.show?id=104565
 
I may make five more sets for the challenge. It's fun and I still have oodles of celebrities I can use.
 
Well, a couple months ago I wouldn't have put Emma on this list. Why? Because I always thought she was a bit overrated. I never really thought she could act nearly as well as everyone gave her credit for (and I still do). She tends to overact and be too dramatic.
Then I started watching some of her interviews. Particularly the Marie Claire interview. I realized she has a fantastic personality and she seems genuinely sweet.
And I happen to like her hair now. It's very pixie like and suits her petite figure. x)
So there. I admire Emma Watson.
Just don't get me started on Bonnie Wright.

23. Lea Michele
25+ Girl Crush Challenge
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Look at me! Making a SET! Hehe.
 
I normally dislike it when Glee does a cover from a musical I like, but Lea has such an awesome voice that I didn't mind On My Own. x)

"And the tears come streaming down your face when you lose something you can't replace"
 
I was on Facebook eariler today, and someone I really truly admire and look up to more than anything sent me a message.
I just started crying because I miss her so badly.
And I feel like I'm never going to see her again.
Wether she knows it or not, she helped me through some really dark situations.
She was the only one there for me when I didn't have anyone to turn to.
The only one who seemed to care what was best for me.
 
And those paintings in my set are hers.
See? She's remarkably talented.
 
Yeah, so, I guess I'll learn to get over it.
It's been a month and a half since she left?
 
:\
 
-A

Eh, I stuffed way too much into this set. It looks overcrowded. -.-
I fail.
 
We had a great discussion about Moulin Rouge today... in church.
Ha!
We had several evil eye glances, apparently some adults can't take our humor very well.
>.> Oh well, that's their loss.
 
Whoo! Someone clipped new Phantom photos from Fanpop, I want to thank whoever that person is... because I quite like all of them.
They're screencaps from the movie... but they're shot from a different angle?
I'm not explaining that well at all.
 
I don't have much to say, my life has been pretty boring.
Nothing exciting ever happens to me.
 
-A

22. Natalie Dormer
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She is a beautiful aspiring British actress.
Cary Mulligan, Keira Knightley, Romola Carai and Natalie I hope are the next big actresses of Hollywood.
They're beautiful.
 
So I must read Ivanhoe for early British literature.
I haven't started it yet, I don't really plan to until I finish Mockingjay (but as fast as I'm reading that it will be October before I start it).
All I know is that robin hood is apparently a character in it.
Other than that, I don't know much about it.
I'm supposedly a college reading level, but I can't seem to understand half the books I've had to read this year.
Next I have Jane Eyre, and I know I'll like that because I've already read it.
Then Frankenstein and some poetry in between.
This all has to be finished before the end of the semester.
I'm almost positive I can finish it all.
It's just stressful.
 

I've decided to write a new fanfic.
Something that has to do with Meg and Erik (so yes, it's Phantom of the Opera related, but did you expect anything else from me?).
I'll post it on Polyvore if anyone is interested.
I just have to begin writing it.
 
I'm also thinking of re-writing In Sleep He Sang To Me, it was pretty horrid.
And I wrote it together so quickly and the plot is everywhere. o.o
I absolutely despise it.
Haha.
 
So I'll have to see how much I get done with my new fanfic before I begin re-writing that.
 
-A

21. Rosamund Pike
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She's so naturally beautiful.
She's one of those women that don't have to have on tons of makeup to be jaw dropping gorgeous.
And in all of her interviews she's really sweet and kind.
Yeah. I just love her.
Plus, she's awesome for just being in Pride and Prejudice.
 
I hate writing.
I really do.
Or at least I hate it when I'm forced to write, writing has to come to me when I have inspiration.
When I'm writing for school I absolutely despise it. I have to be in the mood to write.
I'm always like that with my fanfics too.
I can't just sit down and write, I have to have been thinking about what's going to happen for the past couple hours and have everything planned out in my head before I write.
Otherwise all my characters end up dead.
I can't possibly force myself to write and end up with a good outcome.
Writing is not my forte either.
I'm not patient enough.
 
I just always feel like I'm worthless.
Like I'm not talented and don't posses any gifts that are worth using.
I'm not good with numbers, I'm not patient enough for anything, I have no hobbies.
The list goes on.
I just never feel like I'm worth anything.
I can't stick to anything, I've tried drawing/painting, I've tried writing, I have to deal with my own bratty siblings enough to do anything with kids, I'm not good enough to sing, and lets face it: I'm too shy to do musical theater.
I'm just incredibly confused.
I have three years to figure out what I want to do with my life.
Three.
That's it.
 
I'm sorry, I totally got off subject there... but that's what I've been feeling like lately.
All of my friends have already figured out what they want to do with their lives, they want to write a book, they want to become a teacher, they want to study to be a lawyer, they want to be an architect.
Why can't I go back to the days when the biggest decision was trying to choose what clothes to put on your barbies?
-.-
 
I must go finish Mockingjay...
So then I can give you a book review of how I felt about it.
 
-A

20. Emily Blunt
25+ Girl Crush Challenge
http://www.polyvore.com/25_girl_crush_challenge/group.show?id=104565
 
She's rather stunning.
I just love dark brown hair, pale skin, and piercing blue eyes.
It's quite beautiful.
And I adored that picture of her looking out the window, so I was like: Ooh! I MUST edit that.
 
This is a big hot mess.
I didn't know how to place the shoes the proper way... and then it messed up all the other items. -.-
I suck.
 
So I've decided to take up french, from the little I know of the language; I love it.
And the romantic languages are suppose to all be pretty similar (I know a bit of spanish and italian).
And my dad can speak a little german.
I just hope I can stick to this... because I'm usually terrible at sticking to something.
Like I was determined to be an artist 6 months ago, that's now changed to musical theater.
I'm just trying to figure out what I love to do the most, and right now that's singing and learning a new language.
 
Expect another set from me later.
I'm in the mood to do TWO sets.
Oh my goodness! Is the world going to end?
 
-A
 
(Oh, and I'm no longer putting erik loves you as my sign off... I was informed that was weird.
You know who you are.)

"Because I can't fight the nightmares, not without you." -Katniss Everdeen, Catching Fire
 
Well, Polyvore was being a butt again and cropped off the top of the photo when I clipped it.
And it's incredibly pixelated.
Grr. It looked so much better when I was editing it.
 
So for Katniss I used Kaya Scodelario and for Peeta I used Alex Pettyfer.
I really don't care who plays Katniss as much as I used to, I think Kaya would be a rather good pick but some of the picks everyone comes up with on fan sites are ridiculous.
Selena Gomez can't play everyone.
Neither can Emily Browning [I really don't know why everyone picks her, she can't act very well].
 
I do have several picks for Peeta though.
Alex Pettyfer is one of them... but his face may be a little too harsh for Peeta.
This photo would be a perfect Peeta: http://www.polyvore.com/alex_pettyfer_photos_de_teemix/thing?id=19512377
But Alex doesn't really look like that anymore.
 
Then there's William Moseley, he's fairly older than the age everyone's looking for, but his face is the one I had in my head when I first read the book.
So I think he'll always be my first choice for Peeta.

19. Zooey Deschanel
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It's Abbey's random choppy notes time! :\
 
This song reminds me of someone I miss... but I had to use it.
I love her to pieces and I'm very glad I was able to have her in my life for a short amount of time.
 
I learned on Thursday that my mom's OLCR of Phantom skips during my favorite part of The Point of No Return... which is Christine's part.
Just because I can imagine them on the bench... doing their uh, thing. Ha!
Can you guess why it skips? That song has been played the most, obviously.
I swear if you go to my iPod under playlists my top 25 played songs are all Phantom songs... Point of No Return being at the top.
Then I think Beneath A Moonless Sky comes next.
I'm just very upset that it skips. :\
But my mom will NOT let me buy a new CD, she says it's special or something like that.
Which it is, she bought it on her first trip to NYC so I guess it has sentimental value.
Plus, if you go to buy the CD now, it's $50 brand new.
At least it was on tour.
 
I shall leave you now.
G'bye.
 
-A

17. Kaya Scodelario
25+ Girl Crush Challenge
http://www.polyvore.com/25_girl_crush_challenge/group.show?id=104565
 
She's stunning.
I wish I looked like her.
She'd also be my first pick for Katniss.
 
Speaking of Katniss; I'm almost finished with Mockingjay... except I don't want to finish reading it.
When I finish it; it's over.
The Hunger Games is officially over.
Crap.
 
Random thing that's been frustrating me lately:
People who try to act like other people.
It really drives me insane, and it makes me loose respect for you, because isn't everyone suppose to be themselves?
Yes, but sadly that's not the way the world works. -.-
I know several people who behave like that, male and female, and frankly it's gotten on my last nerve.
I have a friend who's all for being herself and acting stupid when everyone's watching, and yet she's been trying to imitate my laugh for the past two months.
My laugh is something that's mine, and I really don't want someone stealing it. ;]
I try to be myself in every situation, but I wish she would learn that too.
 
Rant over.
 
To all my Phantom loving Polyfriends, I have sad news. :\
The opening night for Love Never Dies has been pushed back again.
Yup.
There isn't a specific date yet that it's set for as of now, but I'm rather disappointed.
My mother and I have been planning to take a trip to New York whenever it's released.
Haha, I've been saving.
But now I don't even know when that will be. :\
 
Grr. I must wait longer.
 
-A